Happy Tuesday ladies! Before I start rambling lol,  I want to let you know this post is totally off topic. It’s more personal and has nothing interesting to say about clothes or shopping. So feel free to skip I’ll have some Anthro and J.Crew reviews later this week.

So, I just wanted to say sorry for not being too responsive the last couple days! My mind has been elsewhere because, I dare say, I’ve decided to have my nose done. I’ve touched on this subject in the past and really appreciate all the kind words you girls had for me. I hope you don’t think I’ve disregarded them or the talks we’ve had about accepting yourself. I haven’t and I do feel that my profile has a certain unique and statuesque quality lol. Writing this blog and chatting with you has taught me to appreciate my good qualities. Inside and out. Yet still, I can’t shake the feeling that my nose doesn’t fit. It distracts from the rest of my face…and distracts me.

Most of the time I don’t think about it. I’m not sitting her beating myself about my profile lol. It’s just something that lingers with you. That self consciousness is always there, just a little bit. I think a big part of the reason I’ve never been able to get past it, is that my bridge is so high that I always see my nose out of the corner of my eye. Reminding me.

I hope sharing all this is not making you uncomfortable lol. It just feels a little therapeutic to write it out. I’m not the type of person who shares my personal life with people in real life (expect with dh of course.) What’s worse than when some one starts pouring out too much personal info and your standing there wondering awkwardly what to say to make them feel better lol? At least if I share on the internet, you can walk away haha. I’m not fishing for complements at all. So don’t feel obligated to comment on this rambling

Anyway! What  spurred me on to actually do something about my nose, was finding out that the Dr who did my teeth was  facial surgeon and did noses as well. I felt really comfortable with him and happy with my teeth experience, so I decided to talk with him about rhinoplasty. I hate that word, rhinoplasty. Hello we obviously already hate our nose, now we have to be equated with a rhino?!

I got a lot of great info from Dr at my appointment yesterday. But to be smart, I’ve scheduled an appt with another doctor to get a second view point. The fact that I’ve scheduled two appts about this speaks volumes about how ready I am. I HATE making appts. To a disgustingly lazy degree lmao.

Obviously, a new nose doesn’t come cheap. So if I go ahead it will mean no London vacation for me this fall I hate spending money on myself vs a family vacation. It doesn’t seem to disappoint dh at all though and I guess there is always next year. I will have to cut back on my shopping as well. So you may see more closet reworking and less new goodies.

As I continue down my road to a new nose, I may mention it once and a while but it won’t take over the blog. I might be brave enough to share before and after pics someday, if you are interested. Thanks for reading!